i am very tired...

i dont know. im just tired. i thought about going to class today, i almost didnt.
but i guess i had to because i had to retake a test, but that didnt end well. teacher said she had to tal to me about how i suck in ratios and rates.
winter break is almost here and im debating on what to do when i go back to illinois.
it should be interesting going back to work at auntie annes.. well i do have apply again. i guess i could apply online.. or i cant. i dont know their website is odd.
well i need the money.. i dont know. college has seemed like one bill after another ifeel like im debt but im not really. i guess its my mind thinking about all the financial aid i have to apply for.
ok i must be off.

nobody fucking reads this..

i know no one cares but id probably update this soon

xanga was being gay..

wow this is new..
well its been ok latly not too bad not to busy but i have finals coming up and i need WAY MORE HOURS at work.. 17hrs a week.. that sucks i need 30hrs.. grrr..
well yeah i need to wake jessi up.. geeze..



I Love Jessi

repost of my march 5th entry

loreto versus the state of dis trust

my band..

punk/hardcore outfit.

2 guitars. either dueling guitars, complimentary, or just rhythm

bass..i dont play bass so i guess standard parts or and guitar like parts or fun fills kind of like old thrice bass and alkaline trio(from here to infirmary about that time period)

drums... very trickey stuff.. i dont know but i guess anything that has a good beat but like i said punk/hxc outfit so yeah punk and hxc type percussion

other effects. i think keyboards would be nice and secondary drums here and there would be good.

lyrically? not sure yet i guess standard hxc stuff and to no lyrics. i love instrumental songs.

song structure. usuall verse chorus verse to verse chorus breakdown outro anything interesting..

"look" i dont know. black..long hair. whatever is cumfy
instruments, nothing too extravagant i think standard les pual to RG type guitars would be good probably no BC rich or washburn
bass uhh i think fender body type bass would be good enough but epiphone or ibanez would be cool
drums.. iwould say anything from standard 5 piece to a huge set with 5 toms 1 snare a double bass and millions of cynbails..


yeah im bored..

ihad a good day though...

hmm interesting night

so why do i love fritoes.. click.. i love that movie and jason lee is soo awesome in that movie...
oh yeah click and read about the movie its awesome. i love it ive seen it a few times


that is soo sick but really interesting. and the guy that did all that also plastinated his best friend. he also has a HORSE that is on display in the musem.. oh god..


its all natural.. hippies make it.. so why not vegitarians and vegans wear it.. their motto more or less is everything all natural.. ohh well, whatever..


thats my fun with html code.

... yeah ok enough of this

im sick of life..

im sick of the pressure.. of working, worrying about school, doing my best and trying to be a good kid.. tired of worrying if i have enough gas to make it threw the next few days.

it doesnt take much to make me want to end it all but its rare when i want to.

NOW is one of thoes moments.


blah kill me.