remissions

its just about 3am.. i just downloaded a mogwai song its about 9mins long, so far ive heard about a minute or so from it. its pretty awesome

so yeah im sitting on my futon watching chan 20 on basic cable and it made me think about life.. way back long time ago.. i was happy but it wasn't in my opnion a good happy, i was a kid.
In my opnion all kids are delusional.. they believe one thing but the world around them its totally, or almost totally.. different from what the child believes.

i just tired seeing of MP3Shits has any jamie cullum
so far this mogwai song is instrumental, if there are any vocals i cant hear them.

so back to what i was getting at.. its not to say that i am not happy right now.. its just i know more and i am happy with my current situation. but it is a sad inevitable fact that things do change. i just got to know that when they do, its not the end of the world.

back when iwas a kid when something did change.. i really dont think i took it well.. but i really dont remeber how i reacted to life. i remember though when something happened, i will not say what happened.. if you know me i think i might have told you already but i dont know.. so yeah when that happened i didnt react, i really didnt do anything i sat in the corner, playing with cards.

now adays im kind of the same but yeah i dont like to admitt that im pretty stoic about life. its not that i feel negative or non feeling about life, its just how i grew up
its kind of hard to change how a person reacts when thats all they know.
yes, me older and a bit wiser.. i know change comes. i just take it. unless ive thought that far ahead, that i have a plan to change it back
its not to say that i am not happy.. its just im happy right now.

im in a good situation.. i guess.. money is lacking..

but its like ... there is no perfect situation.


-written listening to the following
Mogwai- 2rights make 1 wrong
KillSwitchEngage- Rose of Sharyn
and scrolling threw various songs -d/c -Blink182-BdM-MYChemicalRomance-Slipknot