im in a bad mood

.. oh yeah im pissed off.. i hate being home on a day when i only had one class, and i didnt even stay for the whole period.

so yeah why im still home.. i get yelled at and bitched at because i dont know how to get financial aid.. and after being bitched and whined at i get a call from ass number one telling me that i cant even get financial aid because of something or other.. at this point i really dont care.

also during that phone call... A1 had said some things that would make any other person want to kill them or themselfs.. A1 said that i cannot get financial aid.. and critizied me about getting a job.. said that i was too immature to get a job and lack confidience.. AND.. also said if you cant succeed in geting a job how can you succeed in your relationship that just.. grr..

i loath this family.. just like A1 said im really not apart of the family.. i realy dont care if she acts that way towards me, for all i care i might as well be. IF I HAD A JOB AND MONEY i would of moved out by now.. i could give a fuck less about them.. i dont care of my "special" brother is neglected and they die.. how do you think i was treated growing up as a kid... i never got the "love & affection" a child needs. you made me go to bed early.. and forced me to stay home and when i try to hang out with friends.. you HUNT ME DOWN AND WALK ME HOME AND DRIVE SLOWLY SO THAT YOU HAVE AN EYE ON ME... and after a while i grow up a bit you ask me why i dont go out.. and when i finally do you hate it.. what the hell.... i hate you.. i will always hate you.. to me you are roomates.. not family. ihave no family the only people i care about are my friends and Jessi.