i like lists

currently at this moment
-watching teen titans on cartoon Network
-said goodbye to Ashley, good old buddie of mine
-talking to my good friend Cara!
-ahh feeling the cold embrace of this empty room
-missing a certain redhead
-pondering the days events as they transpire threw my memories
-siting on my computer chair, sitting on my leg
-wearing my sleeping/house clothes
-messing with my emo looking hair
-weraing socks in honor of someone
-wondering where the back door of this room is
-want to feel loved right now, want someone in my arms
-feel like i need more water

so things bothering me? nothing really just the trite-ness of school and how fucked up it seemed like today was sunday or sumthing. its like somedays i feel long "siezing the day" and sometimes i feel like another face in teh crowd(Bahh haha yeah right) and sometimes i just feel like shaving my head and throwing up at the sight of meat. BE A NON CONFORMIST. Blahlah, last night i stared at marta's pic for a good long while, she is SOo beautiful-eve when iwas talking with ashley a while ago, could tell i was being obsesive. but its kind of hard to avoid the truth. i know shes tna nd stuff now but its like i dont care, i love her evenmore. umm yeaah people ask about her.. Bethany(phone) Ashley(online) and Jeff(at school he saw my xanga site and asked me who Marta was) OHH this one girl at school(ive seen before but never realyl talked to either, and still dont for some reason, makes me think about what Marta said, ASK ANY GIRL OUT) her names Ashley, she hangs out with Valerie(sP) but but shes like into Hxc and punk stuff i guess, BUT more importantly Ashley makes me all warm on the inside, haha shes too HOT for me tho, but shes cool i bet if i had the balls to talk to her shed give me a chance. -sigh- lonlines is my only fridne right now
im not a cutter BUT DONT BE STUPIRZED IF YOU SEE SOME CUTS IN THE NEAR FUTURE
Don't worrie bout me honey, im ok.