tell me when its over.. i still.. always will..

love you, my dear

i can't believe how much it hurts but it has to be done and no matter what you know i always love you. sorry im far and it seems like im gone.

i hung out with jessi at her house we watched tv for a while then we went into her basment to watch some movies untill we left for manda's.
"i gathered my things and we left" manda went ahead and jessi told me how to get there.
once we got there we all kind of chilled got some snacks and stuff. manda's niece came over with her dog Cap.Morgan( manda is babysitting her and the dog i guess, dog is named after the spiced rum) yeah she and the dog are cute and entertaining. crawling on my face stuff.. bitting on my fingers and stuff its fun buutt ouch sharp nails and teeth. (i know im used to bitting but fuck thoes canines hurt) we all sat around watching tv basically.. not alot of talking.. kissing though..

i do what i must do untill i can see you again.
all i see is dust and blood on my hands, i don't think i can live threw this.
i will do what i can untill i see you.

but i did this for you
so you can live a better life with me
i know im far but i will be home soon
i hope you'll understand this please