blogger will set you free

so yes im updating on here. i guess blogger is better

i was reading xangas earlier it just made me think.. and i wanted to write in here. so i am after being sidetracked tho by ims MP3s and thoughts of you.. ha.

a lot of things have happened recently, last night was one of the best nights ever in romeoville, i guess i say ONE OF THE BEST because yeah.. i still loved the time i spent with...DCJ.. ill just call her that for now.

i think it was special for every one that was there.. well except manda.

Emma said it was one of the funnest things shes done ina while and cool since she was gunna be leaving for college

hmm JessiLynn seemed like she was having fun but later on she was sooo soo sad. but yeah she had fun- i told her it was my going away party for her and id miss her for the next four days.

hmm CK i dunno stuff her hair looked cool all wet and she has curly hair... oooers.. haha

so i was talking to someone around 4am this morning and what she said just really surpised me but it shouldnt worry me or whatever since we're going to stay friends.

its not like i don't want to have a relationship with her beyond just friends, just really dont know how it will affect us in the long run

- i started thinking about all the reasons why she might want to become more than friends or whatever she said.. and i thought of how lame i am and how no one needs the misfortune of being close to me.

then i thought about whati was talking about to her when she told me this..shit.. i was talking about other girls to her.. i felt kind of bad but I DONT KNOW. i mean i do love her but yeah.. were just friends