Im a Fake!

"I'm A Fake"

[Spoken:]
Small, simple, safe price
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals
And I am not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart
Love is not like anything
Especially a fucking knife

Look at me, you can tell
By the way I move and do my hair
Do you think that it's me or it's not me?
I don't even care
I'm alive
I don't smell
I'm the cleanest I have ever been.
I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry (dry)

[Chorus:]
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake [x4]
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake [x4]

Do I drink? Do I date?
I've got perfect placement all my ink
Satisfied, in your eyes
I'm the biggest fan I've got right now
I made sure, that I look how I wanted to look
The people around me, the people surround me
I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry (dry)

[Chorus]

My stomach hurts now, and all tied off in lace
I pray, I beg for anything, to hit me in the face
and this sicknes isn't me, I pray to fall from grace
The last thing I see is feeling
And I'm telling you I'm a fake [x4]
And I'm telling you I'm...

[Chorus]

//so yeah ive been feeling down today, lack of hugs or just sad sad shit. its like i walked around pretty much depressed form the start of my day, was itthe lack of sleep? feeling awkward about candy? not talking much i dont know it slike blah right now.... lack of love?

//who am i to say that ill find some one, but seriously who would want me? ive got nothing to offer besides a some one thats willing to listen to just about anyhting. ive heard a million times before im such a great sweet nice guy, but its just girls onhere.. NOT to say itsa bad thing, i love my buddies on here.

//sometimes its like i just want to be left alone and not bothered, id be scream to someone that wants to talk to me "LEAVE ME ALONE." when im less depressed and wanting to talk but not a lot, ill want to beg for hugs or something. and I KNOW theres times where id probably say anything to get into my chick buddies pants, if i wasnt soo uhh bleh about that.

//so what to report about my day? no hugs no love nothing fun or entertaining about my day. odd people talked to me, got wierd questions asked its like YEAH lave me alone please, nothing to do right noow, just resting wish Marta would get back on, i miss her.